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Saturday, December 31, 2016

Walking into 20s

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah
Hello hyeee

Happy 31st of December everyone! Hiks

This feeling is so indescribable because next year (which literally means tomorrow) I'll be turning 20, not officially la because my birthday is 6 months away from tomorrow. You know when you feel sad because there's no more 'teen' at the end of your age but at the same time feeling really touched that I feel like a grown up (not really). Realizing that actually 20 years of living should be enough for us to learn from our mistakes and some of our childish act. It's time to grow up, but not to forget. Always remember things that happened were never meant to make us regret but to take a heed from it. Honestly speaking, me myself find it's very difficult to stay this positive but once we learn to accept it, InshaAllah He will ease everything. One of the things that I wanted to improve in 2017 is of course positiveness within me which seems to slightly decline recently :(

Getting into 20s slightly change our perspectives. Walaupun ada orang cakap macam takde beza pun umur meningkat setahun but of course as we get older, we will think of something more serious in life. What did I mean is start making choice between the good and bad things. The simplest example is kalau orang bercinta boleh start fikir kot does that relationship give mutual benefits or not. Does it leads to good thing like marriage or simply just for fun. If no good in it, better leave it. As simple as that ahahahah.

I love this flower!

 2016- I must say, personally I love 2016. All the ups and downs I have been through were quite mesmerizing when I think back about it. I am thankful that I met people that teach me values in life and still remember me even when we are far away from each other. Some good people who always remind me to do good things. Closed people that always bring me closer to Allah s.w.t. and also people whom we find problem to share common thoughts but still as a matured person (oh yeah) we always find solution to overcome this kind of thing. Then, going into a new place, very new and strange to me put me into a whole new situation. Meeting friends from different ethnic, mother-tongue language and slightly different culture but still share the same beautiful Malaysian culture. Adapting to new environment was never easy especially for an ambivert like me but yeah that is life, nothing comes easy. Work for it, make it happen if you want it to happen. Sometimes, it is hard. Dealing with workloads and some emotional problems, hormonal changes (amende?? haha) as we are in the odyssey towards maturity :') Never thought that growing up will be this hard, mostly emotionally. Maybe, we can overcome this through a lot of good reading materials and exposure towards some good psychology knowledge. Most important of all, always find ways to be closer to Allah swt and close to people who can bring you closer to Him.

Walking into 2017, walking into 20s, I hope nothing but a more positive me. May we get to learn on how to love ourselves. A friend of mine once asked 'how to have high self-esteem?' I really don't know because as a girl, I think this is the problem we are dealing with; insecurities. But what came out from my mouth is 'learn to love yourself'. How? Physically ke? No, learn to love yourself, your true self , what is within you, the inner you which is far more beautiful. That's how to love ourselves in and out. If we still don't know how to love ourselves. Love ourselves by doing more kindness and spread positiveness. InshaAllah we will be happy of ourselves. (this is a very random thoughts tho haha)

Then, always have a target and focus on our goals. What I was focusing on is academic. This is the time, as a young woman to enhance our deepest ability in our field. Be an educated woman and later, educate our children. Once i enter social science field, I felt really satisfied because I finally find something I am passionate in and where I can make full use of my ability. Hihi. Like seriously, never stop seeking yourself. Do what enhance our ability and always fall in love with it. I really hope that I can be consistent with this. Sometimes, Allah give us what we don't like but somehow in the end we finally figure out that this is what we need. Always have faith in Him. Never stop praying and find comfort in praying because who is better for us to seek ease from pain and hardship better than Him?

And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah] [Qur’an: Chapter 2, Verse 45].


Lastly, learn to always be grateful. Always appreciate yourself, people around you. People you like, people you don't like as there must be a reason why we cross path with these people. learn as much from them and be a better us. Some people whom we need so much may not always be around us like they used to be. Learn how to understand ourselves and appreciate them better. Always insert their names in our prayer because what's sweeter than praying for them in their absence!

Happy new year. Let's walk into it with a smile. Leave all the negative things that may affect us in the future. Never let yourself stuck in bad memories even though sometimes it is never easy to let go of the pain which does not take a day to heal but some period of time; only if you want to. Move on. Free yourself from negativity. Bring yourself closer to positive values and people :)


"When you learn to accept instead of expect, you will have fewer dissapointments"

Monday, September 12, 2016

Just keep flying!

 Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah
Hello Hye

The title of this post was inspired by a quote from the movie 'Finding Nemo' which is "JUST KEEP SWIMMING". I don't know why but I found it so inspiring and the message was clear! 

Because I went to the other side of the sea which is Sarawak ahahaaha. hekelehhh bukan pi overseas ponnn but yaaa why not be excited for every new things that happen in our life isn't it hahaha

"He it is Who made the earth subservient to you. So traverse in its tracks and partake of the sustenance He has provided. To Him will you be resurrected." -Al-Mulk (67:15)

Today was my first day on flight. I have never been on flight because I had no reason to take it. But this time I have a very huge responsibility and reason to be flying and go outside of Peninsula hehe. Yeah because I’m going to UNIMAS to further my studies in Degree of Social Work Studies. 

7.00 a.m.
Me, my parents, cousin, auntie headed to KLIA from Shah Alam (my aunt’s house). It took about 40 minutes to get there and about 7.40 a.m we arrived at KLIA. I was lucky that I have already checked in through Malindo website so I did not have to check in at the Malindo counter because the queue was very long! So I made a beeline to luggage check in. Oh geeze I forgot to put on luggage cover to my luggage so I put it on quickly because there are some people behind me. Yeah because of it I did not button it up T_T

8.30 a.m.
Frankly speaking, I am quite proud of my self at this moment because I almost made it to my first venture on flight and I was all alone hehehheh. I was waiting at the waiting terminal for my flight departed at 9.40 a.m. Because I was wearing baju kurung, a pakcik and her wife together with her daughter which age around me asked me “Adik ni nak ke unimas kan, sama lah dengan anak pakcik ni ha”. I was like “ohh ye ke” then the pakcik asked again “kamu sorang ke”. Me- “haah hehe” Pakcik “ayah kamu bagi kamu pergi sorang?”Me”eh takpe.Dia bagi, saya pon ok je” 

At that moment, I was not feeling sad. I am more to proud of myself because yeah firstly, my father allowed me to go and register at unimas all by myself because he believed that I could do so. I’m already her big girl, not the little princess anymore hehhe. It’s not that I’m saying everyone who was sent by their parents are still little girls or what. I just want myself to always find the goodness and positive side of what our parents have decided because they know best. There are reasons too why they didn’t follow me to Sarawak. Firstly, my elder sister will also be registering for her Master in UiTM Shah Alam on the same day, she needed to settle a lot of things. Then, my family are preparing for my eldest sister’s wedding. We need to be thrifty on money expenses at the moment. My father said the whole family will come to visit me another time. I hope that was true! ehehheh

9.40 a.m.
An announcement was made to call out all the passengers. Now I’m getting excited. But quite empty at heart actually haha. So I was on the plane, my seat was beside the window (capturing photos of the sky and a the plane’s wing will be great) Beside me was a pakcik who slept all the time haha and only awake when our snack arrived. 
While the plane was moving and about to fly on the sky, I did not feel anything except when it is just right on the track to fly, my favourite song was played; Flashlight by Jessie J. Awww it felt like a spirit came from nowhere went straight into my heart. My heart and lips sync with the music and the beautiful lyrics. To my surprise, I burst into tears (a bit). 

When tomorrow comes
I’ll be on my own
Feeling frightened of
The things that I don’t know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And in the dark I found, lost hope that I won’t fly
And I sing along, I sing along, and I sing along

We all know the feeling of failure. We all have felt how it was to be different from others. We all had or are falling apart and still trying to stand up and collect broken pieces of us. We thought we could never make it to where we are right now but eventually we made it through because we are stronger than what we think we are and Allah also knows that every test He gives us are all not beyond our capability. Therefore, looking back at all the things I could not achieve before made me realized that Allah knows best and all the things I’ve had before lead me to somewhere I have never thought of. I hope nothing but the best in my academic achievement and also best experience that I could ever have. Aminn..

(Still on the plane)

I felt asleep for a while like a few minutes because the movies on the screen were errr nothing attracted me. The rest of the time I just looked out of the window and edited some photos using VSCO app on my phone(my hobby). 

11.30 a.m.
An announcement was made again by the flight attendant. The passengers began to disembark the plane. Yeahh I made it to Kuching! Alhamdulillah..

There goes how my journey which I conclude in all my deep thoughts to starting a new phase in my life. Alhamdulillah, orientation week has already ended 2 weeks ago and classes also have already started since a week ago. I managed to understand how should I arrange my schedule here, classes may not be as packed as how it was in matriculation back then but of course it is much intense here with assignments, presentations and so many more, I’ve got to evaluate time better and be mentally & physically fit! Wohaaaa

'Jambatan Cinta UNIMAS'

Where ever we go, look up to the sky and praise Him for all His blessing :) 

 p/s: By the way, Salam Eiduladha! Celebrating it far away from home is quite saddening T.T but yeah need to sacrifice here lol


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