Happy 31st of December everyone! Hiks
This feeling is so indescribable because next year (which literally means tomorrow) I'll be turning 20, not officially la because my birthday is 6 months away from tomorrow. You know when you feel sad because there's no more 'teen' at the end of your age but at the same time feeling really touched that I feel like a grown up (not really). Realizing that actually 20 years of living should be enough for us to learn from our mistakes and some of our childish act. It's time to grow up, but not to forget. Always remember things that happened were never meant to make us regret but to take a heed from it. Honestly speaking, me myself find it's very difficult to stay this positive but once we learn to accept it, InshaAllah He will ease everything. One of the things that I wanted to improve in 2017 is of course positiveness within me which seems to slightly decline recently :(
Getting into 20s slightly change our perspectives. Walaupun ada orang cakap macam takde beza pun umur meningkat setahun but of course as we get older, we will think of something more serious in life. What did I mean is start making choice between the good and bad things. The simplest example is kalau orang bercinta boleh start fikir kot does that relationship give mutual benefits or not. Does it leads to good thing like marriage or simply just for fun. If no good in it, better leave it. As simple as that ahahahah.
|I love this flower!|
2016- I must say, personally I love 2016. All the ups and downs I have been through were quite mesmerizing when I think back about it. I am thankful that I met people that teach me values in life and still remember me even when we are far away from each other. Some good people who always remind me to do good things. Closed people that always bring me closer to Allah s.w.t. and also people whom we find problem to share common thoughts but still as a matured person (oh yeah) we always find solution to overcome this kind of thing. Then, going into a new place, very new and strange to me put me into a whole new situation. Meeting friends from different ethnic, mother-tongue language and slightly different culture but still share the same beautiful Malaysian culture. Adapting to new environment was never easy especially for an ambivert like me but yeah that is life, nothing comes easy. Work for it, make it happen if you want it to happen. Sometimes, it is hard. Dealing with workloads and some emotional problems, hormonal changes (amende?? haha) as we are in the odyssey towards maturity :') Never thought that growing up will be this hard, mostly emotionally. Maybe, we can overcome this through a lot of good reading materials and exposure towards some good psychology knowledge. Most important of all, always find ways to be closer to Allah swt and close to people who can bring you closer to Him.
Walking into 2017, walking into 20s, I hope nothing but a more positive me. May we get to learn on how to love ourselves. A friend of mine once asked 'how to have high self-esteem?' I really don't know because as a girl, I think this is the problem we are dealing with; insecurities. But what came out from my mouth is 'learn to love yourself'. How? Physically ke? No, learn to love yourself, your true self , what is within you, the inner you which is far more beautiful. That's how to love ourselves in and out. If we still don't know how to love ourselves. Love ourselves by doing more kindness and spread positiveness. InshaAllah we will be happy of ourselves. (this is a very random thoughts tho haha)
Then, always have a target and focus on our goals. What I was focusing on is academic. This is the time, as a young woman to enhance our deepest ability in our field. Be an educated woman and later, educate our children. Once i enter social science field, I felt really satisfied because I finally find something I am passionate in and where I can make full use of my ability. Hihi. Like seriously, never stop seeking yourself. Do what enhance our ability and always fall in love with it. I really hope that I can be consistent with this. Sometimes, Allah give us what we don't like but somehow in the end we finally figure out that this is what we need. Always have faith in Him. Never stop praying and find comfort in praying because who is better for us to seek ease from pain and hardship better than Him?
“And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah]“ [Qur’an: Chapter 2, Verse 45].
Happy new year. Let's walk into it with a smile. Leave all the negative things that may affect us in the future. Never let yourself stuck in bad memories even though sometimes it is never easy to let go of the pain which does not take a day to heal but some period of time; only if you want to. Move on. Free yourself from negativity. Bring yourself closer to positive values and people :)
"When you learn to accept instead of expect, you will have fewer dissapointments"