I.... do not know.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah
Hello Hye

So many things happened in this week. I feel so empty. So full of anger. So lonely. Like no one really understands me. I feel like in my own world.

I am not feeling happy. Not necessary happy but the I can't feel the calmness feeling. Too many things are playing in my mind. Like what to do, how do i overcome it, what's gonna happen next.

The thing is I think too much. I worried too much. I expected the best and maybe... I am way far from Allah swt.


I know everything happen for a reason. Allah knows best for me. But, I can't really handle it well if I keep it alone. I cannot stand it anymore. I've hurt so much. Arghh. I am just confused.

I know I am not perfect. I know I am full of sin. But please don't do this to me.
I hate to think about this.

I've been living in hypocrisy.
Faiqah is nice, Faiqah is this, Faiqah is that..
When it is actually not!

When someone said like that
I felt guilty
I felt ashamed

But I really want to...

Arghhh shut up...